RESET BUTTON

“It’s the most wonderful time of the year. It’s the hap-happiest season of all.”—-UMMMMM NOT so much!

So it’s been a WILD, BUSY ride lately! It’s been loud, not very nice, messy, and wedges and walls have been the result. Not to mention (but I am) some super bad attitudes and relationship strains!

So I DESPERATELY need a RESET BUTTON. You know like in electronics when things are wonky, you just preset the reset button and it all loads back up and is RIGHT again!!! SOOOOO that’s what I am doing! I am pressing the reset button!

I removed social media from my phone, unplugged the tv, set work hours with the computer, ordered some new curriculum, did a chalkboard wall, set goals for us all, came up with a different way to handle some less than stellar behaviors, wrote down SO SO SO many Bible verses , filled ALL the diffusers, paired some oils with prayers, made all my OILS ACCESSIBLE and am going to once again be INTENTIONAL about connecting with the hearts of my family. LIKE EVEN THE DOGS!

I mean THIS is THE time of the year for FAMILY but it ALWAYS seems to be the one that is the hardest! Do you ever feel like the things that are suppose to be about family and bring you closer ACTUALLY end up as a catalyst for an argument which can pull you apart?

FOR EXAMPLE….

Family Pictures– I yelled for about 2 hours while trying to figure out WHERE they hid their clothes and what color we were going to coordinate! But PRAISE JESUS the fighting didn’t last and the actual pictures and the end result were super fun!

family pic

OUR 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY AND VOW RENEWAL– I had this grand idea of spending the day with my girls and pampering and fun going on, while the boys hung out and bonded and met us at the church. WELL THAT DID NOT HAPPEN! It was a DAY! I don’t even wanna throw an adjective in front of it, because yup, it was THAT BAD! But we made to the church, and Jesus and our friends, who have become family, settled, primped, and brought us back to L O V E!! And y’all this picture is my FAVORITE ever! And I haven’t even gotten the pics from our amazing photographer yet, so be expecting a WHOLE post of pics!!

vow renewal

Then there is Holiday Prep– I KEEP finding my stuff broken and a mess!! And this amazing time of the year that they MAKE FAMILY MOVIES ABOUT usually makes me NOT like my family!

So y’all I am throwing my expectations OUT, going to make myself connect and enjoy my children and the Holidays, slathering on StressAway, putting Joy on my liver and diffusing Christmas Spirit and I am starting TODAY!! Anyone else need to press the RESET BUTTON? If you decided to for any amount of time then let me know!

Praying for all us mommas and our families and that we would TRULY enjoy this magically time of the year!

 

 

Get back up AGAIN

I have been fighting writing this post. I thought maybe a Facebook post would suffice BUT I keep feeling a nudge. SO here we go…..

THIS YEAR HAS BEEN HARD! Have you had one of those? Maybe not this year,  maybe it’s a year you’ve overcome but remember in vivid detail sometimes.

Funny thing about my hard time was that aside from a few moments that crumbled me and left me on the floor in the dark with my phone turned off for a few days, I could do my day to day with confidence and purpose. BUT then the end came and it wasn’t what I thought it would be! I didn’t feel like I thought it would. I thought it would free me to get back to myself, but it has only driven me further away. I think in the throws of it, I didn’t allow myself to feel it, BUT NOW I can’t seem to escape it. ALL the things I couldn’t feel before now rush over in waves.

I pray that makes sense. I just feel like I am struggling in life, trying to get back to who I know I am and my purpose but FEAR! Perfect love cast out fear (1 John 4:18), His Word says it’s true and I am trying to get there!

This past week was difficult, especially when all you can articulate to the ones you love is “I’m struggling. I just can’t shake it.” Did you know people that love you wanna help fix things and it frustrates both of you when you don’t know how to fix it.

WELL there is H O P E. His name is Jesus. What I thought was a mistake on my part by overbooking myself, God worked out to His glory (like always) and used it to start bringing me out of this funk!

God has brought me the MOST amazing people through an ESSENTIAL OIL company! He really can use anything! StressAway calmed my “cray”and I happened into an accidental business. A “business’ that has brought me over 300 people I didn’t know a couple years ago and turned them into family! So thankful!!!

A sweet, new friend asked me how I was! I overshared! I felt safe and released to. She listened. She encouraged. She loved. She sought God on my behalf! I am so thankful for God’s people!

The next day I was facing a 3 hour drive each way to go meet some more new friends and Young Living family! God always uses my time in the car to minister. I found the tears flowing. I found Him giving me the words I couldn’t find myself. I knew He saw me. There is nothing like knowing in a world of around 7.6 BILLION people ALL of whom God sees and loves, He chose to join me in my car and minister as only He could.

I am still working through all the stuff. I am still rebuilding my confidence. I am still going about my purpose. I am determined to let fear produce MORE faith. I am determined to fake it until I make it. I am determined to let my heart reshape my mind. I am determined to be better for it. I believe that God uses all things. I am determined that it the end even this will glorify God. I KNOW that He works all things together for good for those who love Him and are called according to HIS PURPOSE (Romans 8:28). AND I am believing and waiting with an expectancy for the day when it all makes sense, even if it’s on the other side of glory!

So if you can relate at all, know I am praying for you! I don’t need details-God is a God of details and He knows. I pray you know you are LOVED! You are cherished! You are highly sought after! You are worth dying for and someone did, JESUS. He came so that you could have life and have it more abundantly (John 10:10)

This song gave me words I couldn’t speak and spoke to me over and over! I pray it does the same for you! God gives us permission to feel ALL the feels, just don’t dwell there! Seek Him and let Jesus be a healing balm! Isaiah 61:1 NKJV

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound”